the past few days.

hey guys. sorry i havn't written in the past few days. its just been a crazy week. I didnt really doesnt seem like i did much of anything but it still seems to have been crazy busy. lol. i spent most of last week kinda feeling sorry for myself cause i've been extremely self conscious about my body lately. then i randomly came across a few videos on youtube talking about self confidence and image and weight loss and everything kinda clicked....i'm never gonna be happy unless i change my life for the better. it sounds kinda silly when you put it in writing like that cause it just sounds so completely obvious but let me tell you...when you are so depressed and hating the way you look soooo much that you dont even wanna get out of bed sometimes, its really hard to even think of anything remotely close to anything else..especially positive thoughts. So last week i made a decision and promised myself that i was going to live a healthier and happier life. And in order for me to really commit this time i decided to make a youtube video about it so that every time i felt like giving up i had something that i (and the rest of the world) could go back and watch. I was SHOCKED at how much positive feed back i got from it. I honestly didnt really think many people were watching my videos and i had 4 different women talk to me directly and tell me that they were kinda going through the same thing...not all of them nesicarrily had to do with weight, but just with self confidence in general. I was so over whelmed with happiness cause I just was not expecting any of that at all and so for all of you who watched THANK YOU!!!! 


so this weekend i really wanted to celebrate cause i just felt amazing so i got a sitter for friday and saturday had a blast! we went to a bar on friday night and i drank entirely too much and we went to a going away party for some of andy's coworkers on saturday and again drank entirely too much so i was extremely hung over sunday...but it was worth it. i had so much fun this weekend. i needed to just go out and have a little bit of fun with cool people and just let lose! and thats exactly what i did. 


BUT now i'm back. i'm on my A game. I've been eating nothing but healthy foods and drinking more water than i ever have (well...i may have cheated a little this weekend due to the drunk munchies and mass amounts of tequila but i'm good now) and i feel FANTASTIC! :)


so that is all. i'm off to clean and be productive before my loverr gets home from work.






here are the last 3 videos i've posted on youtube for those who haven't watched them yet. 

i hope yall enjoy them and i hope every one of you has a blessed day!!

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jacqueline

laugh of the day.

these video's just made my life.

enjoy! i hope the make you laugh as much as they made me laugh.


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jacqueline

weird.

i've been in a weird mood today....its been one of those days where it doesn't matter what you're doing, you're still bored and you feel alone and you just want it to go away. I've been EXTREMELY homesick today. I just miss everyone so much. I feel sometimes like i'm missing out on everyones life that is important to me and and everyone is missing out on mine. i dont know if its "depression" or what have you but it sucks. i have NO motivation to do anything. i feel that no matter what i do, whether its clean the house or make a youtube video, no one notices and no one cares... all i wanna do is go to sleep and wake up in atlanta. i dunno...just a crappy day.


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jacqueline

meet mahhh bestieee!!

not the greatest video quality but I hope ya'll enjoyyy!!! 


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best friends.

Sorry its been a few days...i've been busy. So wednesday i woke up from having the worst nightmare ever...i really dont wanna talk about it but in a sense i do cause maybe someone out there can interpret it for me...So it was my mom, my dad, my older sister and myself and we lived in this really small town...it kinda looked like Germany except EXTREMELY sunny and everyone spoke english. Anyway-so my sister and I were young and I dont remember very many details about the dream/nightmare except for my dad plotted to murder my mother and he did by poisoning her with a loaf of bread. And the worst part was that my sister and I knew what my dad was doing and we didn't even try to stop him once...and then we covered for him after it happened. I woke up sweating and in tears and I called my mom immediately not realizing that it was 5am where she lives...I dunno. It just REALLY freaked me out cause it was the first dream i've had about my dad since right after he passed away and the fact that it was such a horrifying dream got me really upset. 


but on to happier things...so later that day my friend Kisha picked me and the little one up and kinda showed me around the area and took me to a couple of stores that were pretty cool. Then we met up with the hubs after he got off work and we went to the most UUUHHHMMMAAAYZINGGG italian restaurant. OMG IT WAS SOOO GOOD!! It was a good time...after we ate we literally sat there for like 2 hours and just talked and caught up. It was nice. Then we came home and andy and I watched the new episode of Glee and youtube videos for hours and went to bed.


Yesterday was a really chill day. Andy had the day off so we slept in and lounged around the house all day in our pajamas. It was awesome. We watched American Idol and just hung out. Then me and my BESTEST FRIEND EVERRRR Morgan made a new youtube video together via skype. Its a video where you basically answer questions about your friendship and each other. It sounds kinda lame but its really funny actually. I'm working on uploading them right now so they will be up soon! And everybody please check out her blog  and her youtube channel. :))


So today I've just been working on editing the video and laundry (my least favorite thing to do ever). 


Well...off to fold clothes...


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Jacqueline

Fun and festive and VERYYYYY GREEN St. Patricks Day makeup!!

I hope ya'll like this one! :))

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adele is my hero.

Today was another wonderfully fantastic day. It wasn't anything special but it was still great. It did kinda start off a little bad. I did wake up feeling REALLY nauseous. (no i'm not preggo.) And I got andy's cough which is no fun and incredibly disgusting...but then I took a shower and used my new amazing face wash (clean and clear morning burst) and felt SOO much better. Then I ate some greek vanilla yogurt with fresh strawberries and granola which was AMAZINGG! and then I made myself look pretty. I was in an "adele" kind of mood today (well pretty much everyday...but especially today) so I put both her albums on shuffle on my itunes and did an "Adele" inspired makeup look. It came out SOOO good! I'm definitely gonna do a tutorial on it soon. I just love her. She is by far my favorite artist. I love every single one of her songs. Her voice is incredible. I JUST LOVEEE HER!  anyway- here's the makeup i did:

so this was the inspiration picture

andddddd......

...this is the look i created. not the best quality pictures (my face looks GHOSTLY white) since they were taken on my black berry but yeah. I'll take better pictures when I do the tutorial. 

So after that andy and I went and bought a printerrr!! FINALLY! now i can actually put pictures around my house! :)))) and I got Love & Other Drugs which I havent seen yet but I heard was AMAZINGG! So i'll probably watch that tonight or tomorrow! I made awesome food for dinner. We had Salsa Chicken with mexican rice and corn. It tasted like a tex mex restaurant's food. mmmmmm. <33

Well...now its time to catch up on TV shows (which btw...all you Pretty Little Liars fans...last nights episode was OMGGGG!!! And the finale is gonna be EPPPIIIICCCC!!!!!!!!!!!) , film a tutorial and watch youtube till my eyes are heavy. 

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Jacqueline

first haul/beauty review

Hey yall. So I just finished filming my first haul/beauty review video on youtube and these are the products I mentioned in it that I recommend!

Victoria's Secret Amber Romance Utra-Softening Body Butter

Conair Infiniti You Curl Tourmaline Ceramic Curling Iron

I couldn't find the EXACT model so this is the one that is closest to it.

Remington Wet 2 Straight 1 Inch Wet/Dry Ceramic Hair Straightener

Women's Xhilaration® Titania Flat Thong Sandals - Black

Women's Xhilaration® Tallis Wedge Espadrilles - Natural

This isn't the exact one but its the most similar looking one i could find. this one is a little bit more expensive but i think its way cuter than mine...especially in the pink color!

Fossil Lyla Crossbody

And here's the video! :)

hope yall enjoy!

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jacqueline

target - the love of my life.

Today was a good day. I did wake up a little later than i was wanting to but I had good reason. Andy (my husband) is sick and was tossing and turning and had a fever ALL last night so I don't think i fell asleep till close to 6am. But when i did wake up I made a healthy breakfast, cleaned the house, played with the little one, and played around with some different makeup looks I wanted to test out. Then when andy got home from work he came in with like 5 packages of stuff that we ordered online!! YAY FOR NEW STUFF!! I got 3 pairs of pants, 2 pairs of shoes, and a new makeup brush! :)) The pants are super cute and the shoes are even cuter! I got them all from Target, which for those who know me, is my FAVORITE place on earth! ahhh i was so happy!!! Getting that package was literally the highlight of my month. Along with that Andy brought home Kisha, who is a friend of his that he's known since he enlisted in the military. They went to Basic Training together, they went to their training school together, and now that she's back from her deployment...she's back in Germany for a few months till she goes on her next assignment! I'm SOOO excited that she's back cause I'm in desperate need of girlfriends out here! :)


So after a day of cleaning, getting new clothes, seeing an old friend, eating awesome healthy food, and fighting with the little one to take a bath (of course I won) I am now going to make a new youtube video. It will probably be up in a few hours...I gotta film it, edit it, and wait 123039824098 hours for it to save and upload onto youtube. But definitely stay tuned cause it'll be fabulous! I shall link the video on here once its up. 


That is all for now :)


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Jacqueline

no more excuses!!!

First and foremost...yay for new blogs!! I've tried doing this a few times and I just can't seem to keep up with it. Usually its bad timing (like right when i'm literally about to move across the world) or not having internet...but I have internet and I'm not moving ANY time soon so I have no excuses! 


So, for those of you who don't know, I recently started a beauty channel on youtube and I absolutely L.O.V.E it! I eventually want to start another channel thats more personal...more of a "vlog"...kind of an inside look at events that happen in my daily life, what I'm making for dinner, my travels through Europe, and also some videos of me singing. I recently started really practicing again and getting my voice back in shape. That channel probably wont happen for a while though, so for now I'm just focusing on my other passion...makeup! I'll be doing makeup and (a few) hair tutorials, beauty reviews, hauls, and everything else in between. I have lots of great ideas coming up so definitely check it out. I promise you wont be disappointed! here's the link: http://www.youtube.com/user/jacqueline1187


Also, for those of you that have asked about my life in Germany thus far (and for those who don't know, my husband in in the US Air Force and we got stationed out here in Germany a few months ago), I really love it so far. There are a few things here and there that I don't like but that happens anywhere you live. I still havent seen much of anything yet cause we honestly have not had the time but I promise I will post pictures and videos of everything once I do something exciting! haha. We're honestly still working on getting everything situated in the house and buying all the furniture we still need...and I will post pictures of the finished house once it's done. But might I say that its coming along VERY nicely! :)


Anyway, thats it for now...I may be doing some kind of video tonight for youtube. Not sure yet if it'll be a tutorial or a review...we shall see! 


OHH- also check out my tumblr account. Its just full of pictures, quotes, videos, and music, and other random things I like. :)
http://jmjoseph.tumblr.com


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Jacqueline